My life before Christ was dark and a place of loneliness. When something was missing in life and in my marriage, and I didn’t get affection, I would turn to pornography. The Internet is so easy and so accessible; it makes it easy to get to. But it controlled my life and destroyed it. This addiction destroyed my marriage and my family. After my first marriage failed, I got remarried within a year, but that marriage didn’t work out either. Before my second marriage was even over with, there was another woman. I started seeing her, and the next thing I know I am living with her and dragging my kids along through all of this.
My life is different now. I’m married for the third time, but through time, my wife and I started going back to church. I was happy in my life, but I could feel that there was something missing. I knew Christ was missing in my life. I started going to counseling and through counseling, I realized that I had been using women for affirmation instead of God. I realized God accepts me for who I am and one day during counseling, I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior. Years earlier, I had been baptized, but there was never a relationship with Christ — now there was. Church became more than just church and my wife and I put God at the center of our marriage. Three weeks after I accepted Christ, my thirteen-year-old daughter did too, and we were baptized together at Pinelake.
For a long time, I felt like I had to be a “good person” to know Christ. I wanted that relationship, but felt like Christ wasn’t going to accept me as I was. My life has changed, and I don’t ever want to go back. God has put a great wife in my life, given me two new kids and taken porn addiction away from me. I am proof that that things can change. Christ can change you.
— Keith Chapman, Pinelake Reservoir